nmfinney

Today was Nick's sentencing. They gave my brother 60 years with no chance at parole. They said my baby brother was a danger to society and should never be allowed back onto the streets. They called him such horrible things, things that I could have never called one I love so much. He is my baby brother, he is blood of my blood, flesh of my flesh, he is a part of my heart, and he is a large part of my family. I found out today that my brother will spend 60 years in a state prison. I have not cried, I have not shed one tear, yet my mother seems broken. I know now that I'll most likely be dead before my brother is free. He will never father

I miss you so much. I think about you at such odd times. I can't believe that you are not here and never will be. Why do I feel like you are dead? Why does it feel like you will forever be out of my reach? I think about how you weren't there on my wedding day. I think about how you will miss all the events in Mom's life, Joe's life, Athena's Life and my own. We will never go hiking together again. We will no longer go out on a critter hunt with Mom.  I miss you. I begged and I pleaded with you to stay out of the dark. I have always loved you. Even during those times when we came to punches. You are my baby brother and it seemed we were