nmfinney

How much do I have to sacrifice? How much more of myself do I have to kill? I'm reaching a breaking point. If I give up anything more, even just one more tear... I'll have killed the person I was. The person you fell in love with will be no more. All that will be left is the shell. In that moment I'll have nothing left to give. I'll breathe but not feel. I'll be alive only in body... my spirit will have faded away.. all for our love... and in the end... I'm not sure it was worth it.

I never thought it would happen to me. I am strong willed. I am stubborn. I am pretty. I am educated. Though I can name all sorts of adjectives, when I look in the mirror I have no idea who that girl is. I have no idea who I am anymore. I am not what I dreamt I would be. I am not what I feared I would be. I am nothing I could have ever imagined. So I’ll just keep pretending. I’ll fool you all with my bravado. You’ll see my self-confidence and my strength but you won’t see me. I’ll wear a mask for as long as it takes. I don’t know who I am and so I’ll be whatever you want me to be. I’ll be a

I close my eyes and all I see is you The nightmare that never ends The lifeless look on your face Robbed my happiness The cold skin Gave me chills The body without a soul Tortured my own The heart that no longer beats Stopped my own My only memory of you Is the nightmare that will haunt me till I die

You believed my sweet words Even though they were obvious lies You just wanted to believe they were true You didn't care if I really felt that way I knew what you wanted to hear And gave you everything Except my heart I could cut it out And hand it to you I could bleed for you But no matter how I try My heart will never beat for you